I need to write from my heart today.
Last spring, cancer took my grandmother. Last fall, it took my other grandmother. Last night, it took my friend.
I wrote this as I lay awake in the darkness early this morning. I didn’t write it to win sympathy from anyone. I wrote it as a promise to them.
I wrote it for one and all of them. My wish is that anyone struggling this season will read it and find some comfort.
I will not remember your pain, because your strength was so much greater.
I will not forget your kindness, even as the world shows how unkind it can be.
I will not worry about someone’s opinion, because it has no bearing on my legacy.
I will not judge, because I don’t know anyone’s whole story.
I will not squander what I’m given, because you showed me what’s important.
I will not forget to laugh, because you laughed until the last moment you could.
I will not take for granted my own time, because I can’t say how much there is.
I will not forget how to treat a friend, because you set the perfect example.
I will not be afraid to be myself, because you were confident in who you were.
I will not feel guilty when I forget these promises, because you wouldn’t want me to.
I will never hear that song the same way.
I will hold my babies closer.
I will ponder creation with awe.
I will act like a child and relish it.
I will count each day with my husband as a gift.
I will strive to live in balance.
I will enjoy dessert.
I will spend my money on experiences, not things.
I will marvel at how big the world is.
I will give to those in need.
I will remember your faith.
I will remember your courage.
I will remember your joy.
I will be thankful when I see you in my dreams.
I will laugh when I want to and cry when I need to.
I will hope to see you again.